Morning, Books~

Great! I don't know I should continue sleep or stay awake after you wake me up. Then, I lie back to my bed and start tweeting. @@ Was closing my eyes and trying to sleep again but after few minutes, I give up. So I should thank you for waking me up? No one can actually make me awake from a deep sleep like you did. Because after your call, I find it really hard to fall back asleep. I mean, this things happened every times. Maybe there is no one else willing to wake me up at the moment you have called.

I know, it's like talking nonsense...

I also don't know what I actually want. Telling you that I Love you but try to stay far away from you, saying that I didn't take it as a joke but still didn't take it serious, and ask you to wait even I love you like hell now.

Remember I told you that I'm scare of being in relationship again? Can I use that as a reason to explain the things I do right now?

We are together for three days...only...

There are so many things I didn't tell you about how I feel... actually I did sometimes, but you choose not to believe. I feel more hanging than before after I accept the request, I really don't know whyyyyy the hell I accept. Of cause I want to be yours, but I think you know why? No one can actually be yours because you yourself don't want it.

like you are the right one...

You can never believe what a girl tells you, I truly confirmed that after I realized I hide many things from you.

I really do care...I care more than before, and more than I ever thought even I didn't tell. Things really changed because I really have the feeling of being in relationship. I am smiling and laughing all the times but inside i am dying, just... you don't know that.

I am the one who always push people away...

I am sorry kay? If I really hurt you? Even I understand the chances for me to get hurt will definitely more than you. @@ and I am the one who suffer more than you... >.<

“ I am going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything's perfect. Act like its just a dream and pretend you are not hurting me at all ”

I Love You.