SO I should be glad that at least you still fight a little bit for me? @@

Sometimes I really think that somehow I still own a little bit of you, and I know I shouldn't think that way because you don't want to be own by anyone else? maybe? Eventually find out that I'm the least you actually care of and I really mean nothing to you. Really sick of living on false hope that you give. 

I don't want to need you, because I know I can't have you.

I was actually drunk yesterday, again. But that's the only moment I have the courage to tell you the things I have told you yesterday, and that's the only time I can stay strong to keep say "BuYao" to you. *Should be not rational enough so that I can keep say "BuYao" to you. Then only I can start not to put hope on you anymore after we settle down our relationship. I can stop waiting like an idiot everyday, and get disappointed after that. Hope I can do so. Hopefully I will not become irrational again. @@

It sucks when you know that you need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen.

and about Your family. @@ I think it's not a big deal right? I really don't know. My friends say it's really serious. Even somehow I think it is really super damn serious but you make everything look like a joke. @@ You and I know that very clearly, everything happened that day is not for a reason, but accident >.<

and YES. I want to let go.

So I should feel glad that you actually called and asked? and actually you says "BuYao" too. Feel myself so silly to think like this. Because you don't even care.

I understand. Really. 

Sometimes, the person you want the most is also the person you're best without.

So I will try not to care so much because probably the less I care, the happier I'll become.  

Play on the safe side and don't get hurt.

Still~ I must admit that you are very good at making people think you care.

Sleepy die...I know it is stupid to miss you BUT I miss you. Good Night world. 

ps. biao mei forever... ='(  I know what's best for me, but I still want you instead.