Sometimes no matter how hard you try somethings are never worth it...

I should update a little bit about my life because I think I have dumped my life enough and wasted my time to that one guy who doesn't actually care about me. 

Let's begin =)

CanCan~ <3

Yvonne Babe~ <3

I meet with my darling cousins at OneU that day, of cause my younger sis came along with me and we're late because she went to cut her hair that day and reached home late. I don't want to show her picture here, she appears too much. xD Yvonne finally back from US but we only met once and now she is back to Sarawak. Maybe I'll fly to her with Candy during my next holidays for her. =)

We meet at Kitschen when two of them are trying clothes crazily, lol what GIRLS always do! I did the same things and bought new shirt again. Should really control myself. We have Auntie Anne as our lunch and went for dessert.

Me eating GreenTea ice-cream happily...

GreenTea always my favorite ♥ Got this GreenTea ice-cream from my dear Yvonne. She gave me immediately after she decided to eat dessert, exactly that type of people who like the new & dump the old, sooo cute. But she only does this to food, so don't misunderstood my words kay. 

The next activity is SingK...I realize I keep went to SingK with friends for this month. Too much~ and I still want to go...

SabSab is the one who attend most of the SingK session with me. =)

SabSab & TeenTeen, we like to call each other this way xD

another session...But they don't want me to show their face...

 I like Neway more... Because I can sit on the corner there like the picture above. =)

Another day was with bunch of boys, we went to RedBox. We choose buffet set and I eat a lot that day. >.< The new talent I find out for Ck is he can sing LeeHom's song with Jay's voice.

And then, it's fun to attend class with friends if we put aside the entire assignment thing. Even we don't talk during class, maybe? But you know they are just beside you as a support. =) 

Randomly upload.

Love this pic so much~ Love both of them so much~

In the class,

The right side...XinYing, Pek Ling & Stress Queen. Chia Ming

FelFel~

Left side...SabSab,Teen & Eve

Oh~ and I skipped class too often this few weeks, should change my attitude, I can't waste my parents' money even I go there just listen to my mp3 but not listen to the lecturer. :p

Nescafe in the class yo. Miss Winnee just beside it. xD

We went to buy this during the break because I'm super sleepy. Then we realized this coffee is expired until we drink half of it, so we just keep drinking.

There is no doubt that college student's life is full of assignments...Someone says want to take my "First time" which is be the first person who acc me do my assignment. He failed again. We always miss the chance. They are the one in the end.

Bro playing iPad...Serious face?

Younger sis doing her homework too...

Seriously I can't do my assignment at home. I will fall asleep all the time once I start to read all those thousands words of journal. I guess I will go OldTown next time ALONE and do my assignment. Yes, you still have the chance to take my first time, but... I guess... No more chance for us? 

Shanon in the house yo~ She is my cousin brother's daughter... She call me 姑姑... xD She is just way too cute. The most famous little cute girl in our family, all of our family member "chase" after her, especially boy. We celebrated Father's Day yesterday and also her birthday. She will smile like this when we ask her to smile. But then she chase after "Angry Bird", which means she only will approach to you when you have "AngryBird". Stare at her the whole night and I finally understand why they like baby so much, and why you like baby so much. The way her daddy love her & the way my brother kacau her make me think of you the whole night. Because I know you like children as well. sigh.

Next, for MC birthday, the activity I love the most.

Me with BowBow...

Why this photo end up like this? I was smiling actually, to MC's phone. Don't know why her phone camera can't function well or something, I feel pekcek & look away. Then she captured by the time I look away. 

MC in the middle yo~

I love that night, even not enough alcohol, I didn't drunk at all, and we leave too early. I enjoy to the max, uuuurrrggghhhh~ I should stay and dance until it close. Then we chill out at mamak nearby, and find out MC bad habit! She lie to me, not good not good.

Someone is there, then... urhmmm...the second date, first time we spend almost 18 hours together, first lousy breakfast, first not tasty lunch, first movie with black label and first dinner maybe? It seemed inconceivable that four of us sitting on the bed and drinking beer together. It's like wow! Unbelievable... I miss it, I miss you. I cherish our memories and every moment that I've spend with you, because I know it's really hard to make you stay.

What you give me is like, fake love.

I don't know why you start to play, and I don't know when you will stop playing. But, I can't keep the relationship like this. It's tired. Yes, maybe you care, just the feeling is not right. Your action tells everything, you don't care. You are just trying to make as many girls as you can to stay by your side to be your back up.

Don't count me in. I don't want be your back up anymore.

my pattern? Always...

I keep putting hope on you, what you said to me before doesn't turn out what you are. The most important, it is because I'm not the only one. I have no idea why I will fall for you; I didn't tell you that actually when the first time we meet, you are the one who caught my attention. @@ It's hard to let go, because I still having hope, but I'll try. I will miss die you after that. >.<

Sometimes i think it's better if we don't talk. Because every time we talk, I fall a little harder and get hurt a little more.

Not reply your msg is difficult, not answer your call is even harder. But I know it's easy for you. I think of you everyday, it kills me. I just don't want you to make me stay by your side just only one phone call. and you are not only do this to me. You'll call others too. And maybe you're just bored. I am just one of the girls you will call. That's it.

YES, I AM RUNNING AWAY FROM YOU AGAIN.

I know it's stupid to let go when there's a chance for us to try, But no point to try when I know the relationship won't last long and I'm the only one who keep fight for your attention. Still, you are gonna leave at the end. My friends blame me for not trusting you, but I've already give you the chance. I think you lie and runaway? You are the one who don't tell the truth first. What I want is truth, not feeling good. -.-

I might be the one who walked away but you're the one who pushed me so don't blame me, blame yourself.

Yes, YOU  ='(

I ask you to wait for me, but I'm leaving again. -.- I beh tahan myself...
My friend told me before that I'm very "bian tai", cause I make people fall for me, and walk away like a boss. Hmmm...Really, I'm not doing it purposely, just being friendly. They misunderstood. -.-
So what now? Let the same type of people meet together and see what happen next?
I can't handle this, just stop first.

I still don't know what I want, So don't come after me, I only will make you confuse.

okay...Done. I guess I will start finding job maybe. Cause I want to fill up my time. The chance for me to work is a bit low but I still want to try.

Lastly, for the girls out there. Crime case is increasing. Malaysia is not safe for lady now? LOL.
Take good care of yourself please. Don't go anyplace, anywhere, anytime alone.
I wonder how can I walk all the way to college alone and get my car alone, I'm scare right now.
Really far... T.T Should put a knife inside my bag?

Now, I have my Lovely friends, Lovely family... Lovely LOVER? Wait slowly.

Lovely life? I guess no. I got stressed out by the assignment and I tell my mum I want to quit study. She ask me find a boyfriend and get married. -.- Then I tell her, No one wants me.

Guess I won't do that and will try to continue study. =)

Phone Wallpaper.

Bye. Oh~ Happy Father's Day.